Thursday, March 31, 2016

Kids are ASSHOLES

Hello Reader,

By now most of you are assuming that I died, or became a heavy drug user or was abducted by aliens.

But alas I did not die. Merely became too busy to attempt logging on. 

You see reader, I now have kids. Not just one but FOUR!

That’s right, my husband and I now have a child for every year we've been married. 

Four years of babies tends to put a damper on trying to use your creative outlet.

My creativity nowadays usually involves trying to figure out how to sneak into the bathroom long enough to use it before they find me, and let me tell you...they find me. EVERY. SINGLE. TIME.

And now my dear reader, I'm going to let you in on a secret most mothers will not tell you for one of two reasons. One they don't cuss, or two, they are trying to lie to your face and be as politically correct as possible.

 Neither of which I can say I do so here it goes.

Kids are ASSHOLES!

There I said it.

Kids make adult assholes look like freaking Mother Teresa.

AND they take everything from you!

Very small list of things they take:

Your sleep
Your Emotional capacity to do anything without laughing or crying (sometimes both).
The time you used to have to read and not just books but even food labels or directions. I have basically just learned to make sure somewhere on the label say "non-toxic" and go with it.
ANY type of time really is used to care for their every demand and believe me when I tell you that the list of their demands is longer than the numbers in the mathematical PI.

Children are very narcissistic beings. Their sole purpose in life right now is "how can I get what I want?"

I shall now explain to you the depth of my assholes, whom I shall label them 1-4

Asshole #1 is currently three years old going on thirty.
 He demands more than the rest only in the sense he has learned to use his mouth. Everything has become a question now. (Answer questions to a three year old with as little information as possible for each one so that when he continues to ask why, you have a small answer each time.) 
Every request you give is met with defiance.
"I don't have to"
"Shh. Just listen to me"
He is currently addicted to the film Paddington and frequently starts conversations about how marmalade is made.
I have NO CLUE how marmalade is made.
He is the pickiest of my eaters however luckily; he also makes the healthiest choices.
ALL in ALL he's the neediest.

Asshole #2 is TWO and every single bit of the terribles. 
He enjoys anything from the television...this is a problem. 
He is also the reason I may die of a heart attack. He has NO FEAR. None. Not a smidge.
He jumps off of everything, puts disgusting things in every hole on his face. Mouth, Nose, Ears. He's not prejudice of any of them as long as it’s there he's gonna find a use for it.
He's mouthy. He screams in octaves no child or human or dog or bird or really ANY creature should be able to hit.
AND speaking of hitting, boy does he ever. That child can throw a punch like nobody’s business.
He refuses to be social with people and he hides in the smallest places in the house. Places you would not think he could be. But does he answer when he's hiding? NO! He will have you running all over the house screaming for him and just when you start crying and fixing to call the cops, he POPS out of whatever magical hole he was in to say "gotcha".
Probably his biggest issue was that he was not ready to stop being the baby.

This brings us to the two-fer.

Assholes #3 and #4

The twins.

Granted these seven month old babies are just that, so have they really "earned" the term asshole yet?

To that I say yes. 
 YES.

Asshole #3 or as I like to call her "the girl" is just that. A freaking girl. Look I get it. Girls are supposed to be sweet and cute and wear pink all the time...SHUT UP! This girl of mine may be female in gender but she ain't NO LADY. This girl has the worst smelling gas in the world. She yells at people like they stole her man and she beats the tar out of her minute younger little brother. She is the essence of torture to that little dude to the point that he gets upset if she gets within a five foot perimeter.

Asshole #4 is the baby by one minute. He's probably the least asshole like of the four. Doesn’t complain too much as long as he is eating. The boy has one tooth and is already eating me out of house and home. If he sees it, he wants it. Every three hours on the dot this child has to eat and not small portions but full on meals.

BUT...That is where the bad stops.

Each of my children are assholes in their own way but no matter how much terrible they throw at me, there is always at least one thing a day that proves the whole crazy ride worth the ticket.

#1 Tobias.
He has the kindest heart in the entire world. Sure he has selfish moments but he almost always says please and thank you and will straight up tell you if you say a "bad word".
He asks you if you are ok. He hugs you when you don't even realize that's what you needed. 
He takes your emotions and feeling to heart. When you're sad so is he and he rejoices in your happiness. 
He is full of the most gorgeous laughter you've ever heard.
He is chivalrous without knowing it. Wants to open the door for you or help you with the chores.
He is the best big brother in the world.
He is Toby and he's his own unique brand of toddler.

#2 Gideon.
Gideon is the best cuddler in the world. 
Most talented singing toddler I've ever met. He can sing pretty much any nursery rhyme to the tune. PERFECT!
He keeps me from having to go to the gym. Always moving.
He is smarter than you could possibly give him credit for. He knows his abc's and can count to ten.
He eats well without having to convince him that it's good.
He loves games and masters them quickly.
He has the biggest brown eyes that just suck you in and make you love him.
He is Gideon and he is my little man.

#3 Lucy
She has the bluest eyes and the darkest brown hair. The most Gorgeous baby girl in the world. 
When she smiles, she is all gums but she smiles without a care in the world of how goofy it looks.
She loves to wrestles and gives what we call "squatches". 
When she fusses, she makes little sounds like a kitten. So cute!
She is a sympathetic crier. You'll never cry alone as long as she's around.
She is a watcher. Always taking in everything. Wanting to know more about everything she sees.
She is Lucy and she's my baby girl. The only other female in the house. My partner against the dudes.

#4 Toliver
He is the gentlest boy in the world. He only fusses when he needs something.
He has one tooth and it's the cutest tooth to see this side of the Rocky Mountains.
He cuddles with me every day without fail. 
He looks like Santa when he smiles and he gives the most hilarious serious face.
He is Toliver and our lives wouldn't be complete without him.

They have all made my life so fulfilling and worth more than just what I had to offer.

So yes, Kids are assholes.

But we love them.







Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Traveling Through Time?

Hello Reader!

I'm Back!

I apologize for taking so long to post a new installment but I've been a little bit busy.

You see I recently became engaged to my boyfriend Joseph, whom I love SO much. However, He was married once before and we are having to deal with his ex-wife due to the fact that they have a child together. Who is probably one of the cutest little buttons ever but I digress.

Basically, Joseph had made a comment recently that he wished that he could go back in time and stop himself from meeting Her. 

And that got me thinking of what I would change if I too could travel back in time.

Here's a short list of the ideas I had:
  •     Tell my younger self not to allow us to gain weight
  •      Have less stage fright because I would sing in public more often
  •     Stop a tragic death in the family
And that last one is what snapped me out of my past dwelling.

What if I did go back and stop that persons death?
How would it effect the lives of our friends and, more importantly, my family?

And those thoughts of the past kept me in kind of a haze for a few days. I was dwelling so much on it.
Thinking, "oh, I wish it were real" or "ooh! I'd change that!"

I was dwelling on the past so much that it didn't seem like I was living in my present.

And that is where I was forced to draw a line.

 You cannot allow yourself to get so caught up in your past that you prevent yourself from having a future.

I am so grateful for my loving family, fiance, and dear friends that going back would only just change the course of my entire life.

I decided that even if I could, I wouldn't because for the first time in my adult life, things are looking up.

I wouldn't change it for the world.

The point of this blog is simply...Don't dwell on the past.

Sure it is good to reminisce the good times and take value and lessons from the bad times.

Just don't let yourself get a summer home in remembrance land.

As Always,

DanDan

Monday, March 14, 2011

Ignorance Is NOT Bliss

Here lately, I feel no emotion.
But isn't not feeling something still "feeling" something?

The feelings just change.

I feel dull where I once felt lively.

Tired where I once felt awake.

Honestly I feel as though my life is going no where.

"Than why don't you do something about it dandan?"

That's a very good question reader. I am trying, but it's as though the more I think about changing it, the more I realize I can't.

In my last post, I talked about going into my Fictional World when my Real World began to weigh on me.
Yet in recent days I find that going into my Fictional World doesn't fix my Real World's issues.

I didn't want to write a new post until I had something good to write about. Allowing my literary skills to show...but then I realized that this blog is a way for me to express how I feel. That I should write, not to please other people, but to please myself.

Writing right now I don't feel very pleasant. However, I do feel as though I am venting, and venting is always good.

When I was a child, I was under an umbrella of proctection. I didn't have a care in the world. Bills? Money Shortages? What were those?

Ignorance was my life and I LOVED it.

Yet as I grew older the umbrella began to get smaller and smaller until finally, I don't feel it there anymore.

I'm not going to say I want it back because I believe ignorance is NOT bliss but rather willful idiocy.

I'll give you a BRUTAL example.

Say I'm at a party and I hear screaming coming from one of the rooms but I don't go look.
My not knowing what is going on isn't going to stop some poor woman from being raped now is it?
No! The rape still happens whether I know about it or not.

But if I chose to go look and chose to stop it. Then it's one less crime.

Same with politics, bills...well, life.

If I ignore it, it's not gonna stop it from happening.

Therefore, why would I want that back?

Ignorant is how I feel lately when I try to hide away from my life in my Fictoral World.

Don't get me wrong I still recommend it to anyone looking for a quick break.

However, in MY personal situation that's how it stands.

Find your footing in life and THEN enjoy the little trips to the Fictoral World.

Just know that it will help you have fun, but it won't solve your problems.

Thanks Again,
DanDan

Thursday, December 16, 2010

My separated worlds, My one life

The line between my real life and my fictoral life has begun to blur.

It's not because I don't like the life I have now. Don't get me wrong, even though my life is one large glowing orb of  all the matter that makes up life (stress, family, pride, greed, anger, happiness, love, etc.) , I still quite love it.

However, I cope better in my fictoral life.

To be able to slip away, to be anyone or anything I want to be, the feeling is something you have to experiance yourself to understand.

I am in my 20th winter of life. Meaning I am no longer a child. So why do I keep slipping off into the world my childhood self marveled in?

In my opinion, the real question is why did we ever stop? Why cant we grab sticks and act out Robin Hood or just close our eyes when swimming in the creeks warmed by the summer sun and imagine we are mermaids?

My fictoral world is just as real to me as my real world. It hurts me to be away from it sometimes.

Yet I know that when things are so terrible I could SCREAM, I can go find a closet to sit in and close my eyes and be in a world of wonderful mythical creatures. I could have a conversation with Athena or Eros. I could see my grandfather, who passed on before I was ready to say goodbye.

To you, I may seem like a woman who has fallen off the deep end. However, I'd like you to know that I didn't fall, I jumped! Willingly into the far less complicating world of imagination.