Traveling Through Time?

Hello Reader!

I'm Back!

I apologize for taking so long to post a new installment but I've been a little bit busy.

You see I recently became engaged to my boyfriend Joseph, whom I love SO much. However, He was married once before and we are having to deal with his ex-wife due to the fact that they have a child together. Who is probably one of the cutest little buttons ever but I digress.

Basically, Joseph had made a comment recently that he wished that he could go back in time and stop himself from meeting Her. 

And that got me thinking of what I would change if I too could travel back in time.

Here's a short list of the ideas I had:

•     Tell my younger self not to allow us to gain weight
•      Have less stage fright because I would sing in public more often
•     Stop a tragic death in the family

And that last one is what snapped me out of my past dwelling.

What if I did go back and stop that persons death?
How would it effect the lives of our friends and, more importantly, my family?

And those thoughts of the past kept me in kind of a haze for a few days. I was dwelling so much on it.
Thinking, "oh, I wish it were real" or "ooh! I'd change that!"

I was dwelling on the past so much that it didn't seem like I was living in my present.

And that is where I was forced to draw a line.

 You cannot allow yourself to get so caught up in your past that you prevent yourself from having a future.

I am so grateful for my loving family, fiance, and dear friends that going back would only just change the course of my entire life.

I decided that even if I could, I wouldn't because for the first time in my adult life, things are looking up.

I wouldn't change it for the world.

The point of this blog is simply...Don't dwell on the past.

Sure it is good to reminisce the good times and take value and lessons from the bad times.

Just don't let yourself get a summer home in remembrance land.

As Always,

DanDan

Ignorance Is NOT Bliss

Here lately, I feel no emotion.
But isn't not feeling something still "feeling" something?

The feelings just change.

I feel dull where I once felt lively.

Tired where I once felt awake.

Honestly I feel as though my life is going no where.

"Than why don't you do something about it dandan?"

That's a very good question reader. I am trying, but it's as though the more I think about changing it, the more I realize I can't.

In my last post, I talked about going into my Fictional World when my Real World began to weigh on me.
Yet in recent days I find that going into my Fictional World doesn't fix my Real World's issues.

I didn't want to write a new post until I had something good to write about. Allowing my literary skills to show...but then I realized that this blog is a way for me to express how I feel. That I should write, not to please other people, but to please myself.

Writing right now I don't feel very pleasant. However, I do feel as though I am venting, and venting is always good.

When I was a child, I was under an umbrella of proctection. I didn't have a care in the world. Bills? Money Shortages? What were those?

Ignorance was my life and I LOVED it.

Yet as I grew older the umbrella began to get smaller and smaller until finally, I don't feel it there anymore.

I'm not going to say I want it back because I believe ignorance is NOT bliss but rather willful idiocy.

I'll give you a BRUTAL example.

Say I'm at a party and I hear screaming coming from one of the rooms but I don't go look.
My not knowing what is going on isn't going to stop some poor woman from being raped now is it?
No! The rape still happens whether I know about it or not.

But if I chose to go look and chose to stop it. Then it's one less crime.

Same with politics, bills...well, life.

If I ignore it, it's not gonna stop it from happening.

Therefore, why would I want that back?

Ignorant is how I feel lately when I try to hide away from my life in my Fictoral World.

Don't get me wrong I still recommend it to anyone looking for a quick break.

However, in MY personal situation that's how it stands.

Find your footing in life and THEN enjoy the little trips to the Fictoral World.

Just know that it will help you have fun, but it won't solve your problems.

Thanks Again,
DanDan